Wednesday, August 15, 2007
comin through the fog
Kai and Max are standing guard at either end of Caleb, very proudfully watching over him. He has come through this storm. He was out of surgery at 5:00 -- the plastics team decided he had had enough and will address any cosmetic issue in the future after he has surfaced and determines that he needs it. The ENT team finished plugging holes around 12:30 and Neuro went on till 5- 5:30. He is in ICU and resting peacefully, coming in and out of a dream state; waking always to those faces he loves most. He looks angelic and not so badly worked over. Even in this reduced state, Caleb looks mighty to me! He has a fierce determination which will not be denied! I am exhausted and jubilant right now all balled into one ...and want to sign off with a hallelujah to all of you for standing by us today and always. It is beyond my wildest dream - a mother of 3 boys, locked in love - 3 heartbeats united tonight as tho they are one. I love you all - thank you and goodnight. Mum
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Sharyn,
So happy he came through this successfully!
love,
Flo
Sharyn,
You make everyone want to be a better person. You have instilled that in your boys as well. This comes through so clear reading this blog all the time. So glad Caleb has won another battle. The strong always survive. Great news!
Kevin
PTL...Coming out of the anesthesia is going to very rough..the longer you are under the rougher it is to come out..just be prepared. This too will past and Caleb will not remeber a thing...but YOU will forever
Sharyn,
There were spectacular fireworks reflecting on the ocean with few stray meteors and shooting stars tonight. I know they were all for Caleb and am so relieved to hear that he is recovering and resting.
Much love and strength,
Jess
sharyn,
thank you so very much for sharing caleb's road to recovery with us each and every day. i look forward with anticipation every time i get onto the computer to find out what you've added. i feel like each post brings us one step closer to seeing caleb's infectious smile back here on the cape. i really feel like we have locked into your journey and are all along for this incredible ride. your strength is truly admirable. maybe you will sleep some tonight. sweet dreams...
All of you are in my thoughts as I drift off to sleep........let your sleep be rejuvinating, dream glorious dreams. As your boys grew to be men in the blink of an eye, Caleb will be healed in a lot less time than that!!!!!!!!!!!
I have been checking this all day -just about every hour waiting to see how Caleb pulled through the surgery- should have known from the last month that he would do just fine.
Get a good nights sleep mum, Kai and max!
Sue
Sharyn,
You go Caleb! I can now go to sleep with a nice thought in mind. So happy for you and the boys. My thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you!
My Dear Sharyn,
What a wild ride this life thing is... You are amazing and inspiring. Well i guess i figured that out from about the age of 3 when i first starting hanging out with you and decided i was hooked on your company :) but your ability to capture the essence of yours and the family's experience through your writing is incredible. Thanks so much for sharing all of your updates in the blog. You are all in my thoughts each day.
Some years back Caleb was my key collaborator to fatten you up and make sure you were taking good care of yourself. So on that note my friend please be sure to see the sunlight each day, stretch your legs, eat meals and lean on a shoulder or 2 or 3. Even the strongest need TLC and lots of big hugs during these forks in the path especially.
I am so glad that Max and Kai are there with you and that your extended support network is so strong. I love you guys muchisimas...Hoping that the post surgery knar is smooth or at least short.
Love and peace and light and a big hug to you.
Jen H.
Dear Sharyn, Courageous Caleb and brave brothers Max & Kai,
There could be no fiercer storms on your beautiful Cape than this one, and you are all incredible sailors! I am so happy to know, as I slip off to sleep here on the West Coast that you've sailed home safely to a restful place after the trials of today's surgeries, and the endless waiting. You boys must realize what strength you are giving your brother! And what tremendous strength you will all share for the rest of your lives, as Caleb's tremendous challenge gradually resolves, and the rest of your young lives emerges. This is truly a kind of wrestling with God, fellows -- and you are all such amazing young men. Sharyn, you've articulated what is deep within all of our hearts in your incredible messages, and I so very much appreciate what you are offering us, in this real and virtual community. Bless you all, from California
what a wonderful message to read this morning. i am so happy to hear of the smooth sailing. the circle tuesday night...my last one for a while.. was full of song. holding caleb in our thoughts and in our hearts keeps me//us together. with love from lonon heathrow airport. xox sky
I just got out of bed and instantly turned on my laptop to read about Caleb - it's wonderful to read that he came through this surgery successfully!
I am so relieved and the day, although it's raining, seems to be sunny...
Laura
Sharyn,
I didn't find out about Caleb's accident until a couple of weeks ago, but every day since have been reading this blog and praying for him.
When I woke this morning to perfect clear blue skies in England i thought of Caleb, and was so relieved to get to a computer and find out that his surgery went well.
So much love to you and your boys.
Thinking of you.
Flora (and Anna) x
And a Good Good morning to you....dear Sharyn...this morning from WOMR ...on the tip of Cape Cod....soleil is still asleep in the truck...sky-o is somewhere nearer to Aarhuus....and HER home away from home....and....Caleb is resting ...after his latest "gale force winds".....and the circles circle....the family does FAMILY....we circled for you all....last night..at Town Hall...the last request was for some Pink Floyd.....Wish You Were Here...for Caleb.....from First Light Community Radio this morning.... I found a clean version on the NET.....so....shortly after 7am.... we'll be sending out our WISH YOU WERE HERE to brother Caleb and his loving crew....tis TRUE...we wish you were all here...Soon Come, mon!!
Tonight we'll celebrate the surfing side of our Caleb and the rest of his clan...with a HOOT for CALEB SURF MOVIE NIGHT at the LIBRARY ...after 9pm....it's a Hoot-Raiser for healing....NOTHING like a good HOOT-session during a "Flat-spell"...even better when there is a bit of "tropical"...coming our way...
We DO LOve you all ...and WISH YOU WERE HERE!!!"Listen for our HOOTS from the Olde Candle Factory tonight...they're winging their way to your family ...Sharyn....thanks for keeping us all in the loop....we love you...ch/dad...and sunspirits, all
Just in case ANYONE missed this one at the end of yesterday's "comments" ......what a truly inspired HEALING message to our HUGE circle of Caleb!!!.... How much we all have learned and shared...in these last few weeks....and the ripples go on and on and on and on....thanks to you sharyn....kai max jan...CALEB ....and the circles that ripple outward...Happy morning to you all...
A poem written by a doctor about the need for all kinds of healing help:
"The aroma of a highland rose pulsating against the wind
A warm bowl of ginger and lentil soup, carrot juice or a dram of whiskey.
Pharmaceuticals
Hormonal and emotional support.
Meditating by the ocean, diving in its deep cool calm.
Sipping Lemon water, so cleansing on more levels than one.
Mind having its Healing place over matter
we can all be strong and thrive.
Freshly picked comfrey tea from my organic garden.
The sages use sage.
These things are all medicine.
The highest energy we can muster from above, coming down like a cascading sensation of completeness. Are we grounded?
We chant, meditate, rebirth, reiki and sling crystals across our beings.
All for healing .
We eat, drink and breathe our medicine.
Lighting a candle to the flame of gratefulness.
Yogic, tantric, meditative, art therapies, elevated and surreal.
The giving of our Doctor's learnings, ritual is cultural.
The surgeons have their preciseness of skill. Trusting and complete.
Wherever it comes from? Herbalism, traditional cultural remedies, western biomedicines, chinese Traditional, ayurvedic, early vedic, siddha, reiki, yunani, crystal healing, spiritual, shamanism, homeopathy, orthodox, avatar, fox, a prescription from your trusted practitioner, or a pebble on the beach.
The aim is the same ...
To cure"
You are surrounded by so many ways of healing. We hold you and Caleb in our hearts and wait for your news...
WOOHOO, what great news to wake up to. First thing I did this morning was check the blog, hoping but not really expecting news yet. Rest up peacefully now, you are all going to need your strength to help Caleb come back to the real world. You have all become such a big part of my day. Next summer when we go back to Fleet I hope to get the honor of meeting all of you. Your love and determination has been such an inspiration to so many people. As always heart felt thoughts and prayers are with you!
Lisa B has been sharing this one....at our various circles....with a few modifications of lyric....like WE still love you...and WE can't sing the BLUES anymore.....the strength of THIS one goes back a LONG way for most of us....elders....and 'tis GOOD to pass this on.....and on...and on....to our next circle of young ones...and the NEXT one , too!!!
JAMES TAYLOR....lyrics from the HEART!!!!
Well the sun is surely sinking down
But the moon is slowly rising
So this old world must still be spinning round
And I still love you
(chorus)
So close your eyes
You can close your eyes, its all right
I dont know no love songs
And I cant sing the blues anymore
But I can sing this song
And you can sing this song
When Im gone
It wont be long before another day
We gonna have a good time
And no ones gonna take that time away
You can stay as long as you like
lyrics from WAAAAAAY baaaaack for many of us....and they live on.....Healing thoughts to our caleb ....and his circles....light!ly...ch/dad...soleil and sunspirits, all
Sharyn
We were thinking of Caleb all day yesterday. Thank you for updating us on the surgery. Caleb is a strong fighter and I'm sure he will pull through this surgery wonderfully. Now you need to take a breather and take care of yourself today.
Denise
Dear Sharyn,
A wonderful blog on Caleb!!!! Sharyn you are such the teacher on all those things not taught in the classroom, courage, honesty, compasssion, humor, love ......is it a surprise your boys are also that way? Sleep well....God is good. Margie
i am listening to chuck's show this AM, and as always, he is right on! we wake to wonderful news and the image is strength and the most incredible love of all...family love. rest and celebrate. we love you. lisa & deirdre
A very Good Morning to you Dear Sharyn,
The Ripples out into the universe have been felt and acknowledged, and the prayers continue for healing, courage, patience, and much peace. Be grateful for all that has transpired, and what is yet to come. To Kai and Max for their ever loving Grace and Tenderness towards their dear brother, and to you Dear Sharyn for your stamina and courage. You area true poet, thank you for your every word. Thank you for writing in such a way that a picture is painted in our minds of what has tanspired at any given time. I invision prayers being lifted, and carried right to your sides...Rest today, breath deep, your beloved is in good hands, and needs his rest too. You are all in sonstant thought. With Gratitude and abundant Love, Melinda & Mari form Greenfield
Well GOOD GOOD MORNING We are so happy that caleb pulled through we hope that the hurdles start to lesson on his road to recovery!!!
Sharyn you are an inspiration to all mothers you have shown that you are a true heart and nothing comes before your precious sons You can take a sigh of relief now.
We hope the worst is over. We hope you are getting some rest too. warm thoughts and prayers are being sent your way. take care
the MacLellan family
i was floating @ duck harbor 2 days ago on the coolest water hammock that lb found...you actually are IN the water while on it & i was imagining caleb floating on one too. the sky was clear blue, the water calm, it was perfect cape cod calm bliss...this was the image i held for him all day yesterday...i awoke @ 5 a.m (after many times through the night.. thinking about him in his pre op hours)...sending love & healing each time...i only checked the blog three times yesterday & not after 5 so i didn't know he was out early...i awoke @ 1:30 a.m. & breathed a sigh knowing for sure he was out by then & seeing him finally resting peacefully...lb & i got up early to check the blog & yahoooooooooo!!!!! my natural instinct was to turn on chuck's show...sure enough the links are connecting the world over.... (chuck is playing "close your eyes" right now...lb has been singing it @ the circle)...tracy v, lb & i were sitting on our deck w/ only a sliver of sky peaking through the trees... but i saw a BLAZING BRIGHT shooting star, that looked like a fire work...it seemed obvious it was for caleb...
thanks chuck for "angles of the sun" by our dear talented greg greenway..xoxooxoxox....going out to the whole healing circle
sharyn, you are my hero...i love you all...deirdre
Sharyn,
I too begin and end my day seeing how you and Caleb are doing. I am so glad yesterday went well! Those nurses on Ellison are the cream of the crop,and the Doctors at Mass General are the best in the world. It's all good from here on. Love, Susanna
Yeah Caleb! So glad things went well! You guys are amazing!!!! Robin & Priscilla
Dear Sharyn,
What wonderful news! Prayers for a short recovery...
XOXOXOXO
Sharyn
SO happy to hear that Caleb is resting peacefully. Yesterday was a day filled with promise and bright healing light. Positive energy and love surround you and your family.
Spirit circles, love and prayer, medicine and miracles - are gona pull Caleb through til he is whole and healty again.
Patty
What good news-- a wonderful world this morning! Enjoying Chuck's show too, and Soleil's singing-along makes it even better.
I was SO hoping that the booming of fireworks to the North last night was a Caleb celebration. It must have been. Peace to Caleb and family, Wellfleet and beyond. Love, Janet
Sharyn,
What a great sight is was to see your good news on the blog (like others, I kept looking for it) !
And so, when Caleb has recovered from the anesthesia it will be time for a big exhale... for the healing will go on and on. I am so happy for you all. Gail
ditto on the kudo's!
woo and hoo!
wish I was on the Cape with the extended family I miss!! I love you all!!
Maryann
Dear Sharyn,
What blessed news this early morning. And the vision of the 3 of you together, surrounding Caleb, is beautiful. The double rainbow I saw last Friday and last night's fireworks reflected on the harbor were signs of the good to come.
Chuck did an amazing job this morning with his selections - as usual.
And you, my dear woman, are steel and velvet. We continue to hold you all in our hearts in Provincetown.
Mother to Son
Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor --
Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climbin' on
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin' in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps
'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.
Don't you fall now --
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still climbin'.........
Langston Hughes
Dearest Sharyn,
What a huge sense of relief has come over all of us. Such great news and such a wonderful picture you have painted of your beautiful boys together, joined as one.
Since Chuck played this song of
Greg's this morning, I thought it would be nice to share the lyrics with everyone who did not get to hear it...going out to you, Caleb, Kai, Max and all who love you-
Angles Of The Sun-
One day I stood at the edge of the world.
I now know to call it September.
I learned from the sea how to hold such light- gently, lightly.
All of the forces that live in this world, meet at the edge of the ocean.
Brilliant and bursting, held in such light- gently, lightly.
Love exists in as many ways
as there are angles of the
sun on the ocean.
All of the voices that never resolve, mirrored in urgent September.
Held for one moment, held in such light- gently, lightly.
Love exists in as many ways
as there are angles of the
sun on the ocean.
All of the voices that never resolve, the forces that hold them forever.
I learned from this day how to hold this life- gently,lightly.
(descant 1)
Why must I always keep hearing my name as if somehow I could answer.
I have what I need and I need what I have.
How can I change the world?
(descant 2)
I need a hand. When did you last ask?
Somehow, somewhere, somebody
changed the world.
Love exists in as many ways
as there are angles of the
sun on the ocean.
Sharyn,
Today we all hold you - gently, lightly...
Peace-
Audrey and Greg
Be strong Caleb...our thoughts with you as always since we saw your picture in Wellfleet....Ali Andy and Tenaya
Oh, Sharyn, that's SO WONDERFUL!!! We knew that Caleb would come out of this stronger than ever. I can't wait to tell Chris. What an uplifting thing to hear. I'm so happy for you, and hope that today....YOU WILL REST!!!
LOVE ALWAYS,
~Nicole M.
I like to think of you as the Four Musketeers, one for all and all for one. No family does it better than you do. Keep the faith
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle Autumn's rain.
When you wake in the morning, hush;
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
And...as I am shining in the night sky so bright....
I am watching over you, Uncle Poop.
Well, hallelujah right back at ya!! So wonderful to wake uo to your good news! Hoping you ALL are resting, feeling a little lighter. Sweet dreams.......
Kathy and Owen
I am so happy to hear that our capt. came through yet another mighty storm. He just happens to be mightier, thats all!! love, amy
Wonderful news, Sharyn.
Thank you for taking the time, after such an exhausting day, to keep all of us in the loop. You truly are amazing.
NY mom.
Great news...hopefully the storm has passed and Caleb will feel the sunshine on his face in no time! You all are truely a special family and we wish you all the best!
Much love and prayers,
Christa, Jack & Noah Jones
Fellow Pirates from Wilmington, NC
Arrrrrggggggg!
May God continue to bless Caleb and your family. He will be fine!!! Sharyn, you are the definition of a mom in all senses of love, beauty and perseverance. NJ loves you!!!
What wonderful news Sharyn! I can imagine 4 Caleb waking up next to you, and his brothers is the best thing ever!!
It is finally sunny here in Fl today.. it had been wickedly stormy, with violent sky's and buckets of rain.. I know that Yellowbeard controls the weather!! ;)
Rest well ALL of you.. knowing that the storm has rushed out to sea, and calming waters are ahead.
I just want to jump in my car right now and drive to Mass General to bring you some homecooked food, a hug, and a massage. But since you don't even know me, it would probably freak you out! So all I can do is send my healing thoughts for Caleb along with the thousands of others flooding your way, and to thank you for sharing your love and your blog with us. We hold our dear ones that much closer, speak more gently, and linger a bit longer in their embrace because of your generosity of spirit. Thank you, Sharyn, (which of course, sounds like sharing!) a SouthShore Mom
Sharyn,
Tiny acorns from a mighty tree - but oh how strong those acorns are!!!
Tears of joy for you and all your boys.
A Mom
YARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
that boy is tuff as nails, So glad to hear everything went well. Caleb is a soldier, I'm sure he'll continue to impress us all!!!! love~ian
WAY TO GO CALEB! STAY STRONG, WE LOVE YOU!
Thanks for the update...
holding you close.
So glad that things went well with the surgery. With this surgery behind him Caleb can now work on regaining his strength again. I am glad Max and Kai are there to watch over Leb (and you). Every day when I read this blog I am reminded what a mighty soul Caleb is, supported by an equally mighty mama. May all the love and prayers being sent in your direction help speed Caleb's recovery.
Love,
Kim Harris
onwards and upwards!
Sharyn,
All morning today as I fought through traffic on a (necessary) trip up Cape I held the image of Kai and Max at either end of Caleb's bed, his guardians. It would be hard to beat the sense of security and love that communicates. They stand in for all of us who want you to be surrounded by our love and confidence.
jack
He is one tough lad. The recovery will most likely speed up know that the hole is plugged and he isn't losing fluid and feeling exhausted all the time. This message has put me in a good mood. I was feeling sour until getting on the blog. I've got nothing to be sour about. And my good friend will be back on two feet again! Yeah Bill!!!!!
Good job keeping it together Sharyn I can't say I could do the same. Toughness runs in the blood.
Sharyn, Caleb, Kai and Max - and Richard - that makes 5 heartbeats at MGH beating together. Not to mention the hundreds more in Fleet. Steady as y'all go. Great news today. love, arlene
We are so very happy to read this news and that Caleb has made it through yet another major battle.
We hope Sharyn that you can catch up on some rest so that you can keep up that continued strength of yours!
The Young's
Sharyn,
I am so thrilled that he came through and that everything went well. I thought about you and your family all evening, wondering how it was going. It's amazing the power of TRUE LOVE!!
P-Town Girl
yea!!!so glad this one's behind....rest ....love, jodi
Sharyn,
"We can't all be heroes because somebody has to sit on the curb and applaud......"
I'm sitting here applauding you and your sons. Way to go Caleb!!!
Carol O
Sharyn,
Wonderful news.. you articulate and demonstrate a love so universal but often left unexpresssed. Thanks again for sharing. It is this special ability of some to see and accept us as we are that draws us to you all and reminds us to spred the love. May the circle of healing ever widen to encompass all. Ann M
When on holiday at Lecounts Hollow this summer, I read of Caleb and his battle. I'd go out to run every morning and my rhythm mantra became 'fight it Caleb fight it Caleb fight it Caleb' for 4 miles. I have been home in PA, and have sent out the same mantra with each morning run. My heart goes out to you all, and it is my hope that my energy combines with that of all of you to help him heal his way home.
Sharyn,
Wonderful news...keep it coming!
Caleb....with this many friends and prayers you will not be denied. For what might have been changed is your life purpose (which has become much greater) and we know that you know how to go with the flow. You got so much riding in your favor, see you in the near future. Love and Peace, Jim and Christopher
from my little pirate to yours...
Sharyn,
I'm thrilled the surgery went well. My thoughts have never left Caleb since the 4th. My mother and I read the blog everyday as soon as we get home from work. I'm sooo glad he has such a caring mother like you to take him back to health. XXOOO to my captain yellowbeard.
Linetti
Sharyn,
I remember when your boys were all little and thought that looks like a lot of work. I now have three boys and live in Ventura, CA. Our family follows Claleb's progress on your blog daily. You are truly an inspiration to our family. All three of our boys surf and we make it part of our pre paddle out to say a prayer for Caleb at waters edge. When all is better if you find your way to Ventura we have plenty of boards even for you Mumsie. God Bless.
Dan Clarke
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