I needed a distration today, when for the first time I allowed Caleb out for a period of time without me, so I started cleaning . I have polished off the kitchen and the hall- washing the beams and then the walls and the floors- Cinderella style,on hands and knees, then taking out all the ingredients pilling up in the cabinets and washing below and above and throwing out all the extras.
I recall doing this with the same intention- when I was having my firstborn who was to be Caleb....
So then long ago- 25 yers to be precise- I was preparing for a birth and now I am preparing for a re-birth. He is just older now, but is coming into this world with the same big expectations as before. No-one will stop him. No limitations are placed and the sky is the limit.
As I clean I listen to Andrea Bochelli at sonic boom level and I cry alot.... but many of the tears are for the posssibilities rather than the losses.
I look at him and I search his face for answers- but what comes back to me is - what ? I am still here and I am oK and I am just feeling my way back to home. I am trying to make my way back- don't resist- just let me be.. I am well and locked inside but not for long.... Love mumsie
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On the fourth of July, 2007 Caleb Potter was involved in a skateboarding accident.
He suffered serious injuries and continues to need all of our positive thoughts and prayers.
This blog is to serve as a space for updates on Caleb's journey of recovery.
He suffered serious injuries and continues to need all of our positive thoughts and prayers.
This blog is to serve as a space for updates on Caleb's journey of recovery.
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.....and when you get through, you can come to my house.....HaHa!
There's another song that goes something like, "Letting go is so hard to do..."
Cookies are made! More surprises are coming. See you soon! Hugs and Love and God Bless - Natale
As a mother of two 20-something children, I hear you; I feel you; I send you a very big hug.
Hang in there, Sharyn.
NY/Wellfleet Mom
P.S. Every night, when I pray for my own children, I pray for yours, too.
Hey Cinderella,
I think you missed a spot! Put those glass slippers on and do it right this time before you turn in to a pumpkin. I was wondering why all the bottles at the Liquor Store where all clanging against each other... You've got the music blasting so loud even the center of town is shaking! I'm going to get your friend the Israeli guy from Panama with no toungue to come yell at you! That will serve you right!
I didn't know what to think when I saw your title "Letting Go." I was worried maybe you had farted! Poor Spudley would have taken the blame for that I'm sure...
On a serious note, glad to hear the great progress!
Prince Charming
Cleaning is cathartic, so you go girl...And Andrea Boccelli 's voice was created for us to weep until there is nothing left and to feel like we are on the wings of an eagle. I have done it both....especially "time to say goodbye" --goodbye to someone who is gone, someone who is leaving one persona and rebirthing another, goodbyes have many meanings. I first heard his CD at a home in Mexico -- I ran into the living room and asked, "WHO IS THAT and I KNOW that he is singing to me and me only!" Sharyn, I am happy to share him with you....Blessings to you and your family...and your very clean home and to Caleb's independence...
I hear you. So much easier to hold on than to let go. But we must, for them and for us. Keep the faith, trust Caleb to find his way. Spring is coming. The son (sun) is growing stronger each day.
such a powerful woman...every word from you an inspiration within itself, every blog, every message touches the soul to remind me how human we truly are. to let go of the one's we want to protect, the one's we love so much is sometimes the hardest thing in the world. i hear ya! there is a song i listen to sometimes when i just can't anymore and it says..."all we can do is keep breathing..." and you do that so well, just keep on keeping on.
cheers to you and all that you do. :)
mumsie, you are strong and inspire me. whenever i read you. God bless.
a while ago i put in a request for a sweatshirt do i need to send in a donation? i'm happy too! my email is marcyayres@yahoo.com. take care give your lovebug a kiss for me!
wow bochelli would make me cry too. i hear you and feel you today.
It's so good your getting your spring cleaning done now, it will leave plenty of time for gardening later. I just wnt for a walk and was ammazed at how much marsh grass the last storm washed up.
You go for it Caleb...........and Sharyn like a good parent you let him go.
Isn't it amazing how many times in our children's lives we are faced with this, them moving on to a new stage of independence, us trying to figure out what happened to the shaking ground that had just begun to settle. You'd think it would get easier.
Can't beat Bochelli for a sound that reaches in to your soul and carries you.
Happy cleaning. As Caleb keeps going the whole house should be done in a week. :-)
thinking of you and miss seeing you
Steve Rose
Getting out, letting go, release, freedom, independence and being on your own. They are all so so important in the process of healing . Crying, cleaning, contemplating the past present and future, a cleansing of all sorts. I relate, whenever I want to get my mind of things, cleaning seems to work. Know that my thoughts are with you and when your done with all the cleaning get out and take a drive over to mama ocean and breath in some fresh sea air. That always helps me. Much love to you all!
Kim Harris
My Dear Sharyn.....you ARE doing so well. This is a re-birth of sorts, but not only for you. You so listen to your heart and soul, and I believe that is about re-birth. If we allow ourselves to actually "see", we then have choices. It's only when we are closed off to those inner callings that be suffer....and we all know what that feels like. You are following your instincts, listening to Boccelli is what you needed and wanted, and there he was. Cleaning is doing away with the "old", and making room for the "new", so to speak. I like that...Tears of possibilities...always! Remember..Grace will bring you all back "home".
Caleb, so glad to hear that you are doing so well, and finding your own rhythm. Accupuncture is truly remarkable.....sends those darn 'ole headaches packing. Good!Keep looking forward and visualize all that is good....have fun, don't teast Sir Spudley too much, laugh much, enjoy your friends, Jen, your family, and know that you are never far from thought.
Be well,
Con todo Carino,
Melinda and Mari too (Sir Kebo too, our 15 yr old Maine Foster dog...he sends wet, gooey kisses)
Hello Caleb, Max and Sharyn. Glad to get a home update. Looks like we missed our noon curfew for skype, but we'll keep looking for you. We might be 10,000 miles away, but we will never leave caleb's side in our hearts. We love you all and continue to send ALL of love and beauty we experience on our journey! Be well!
Faith & Blessings~ Sweaty Nomads xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Ab-so-bloomin'-lute-ly beautiful entry. Just about the time I think you might run low on apt metaphors, you blow through with another ab-so-bloomin-lute-ly stunning one.
Unbelievable.
Hail to the Mistress of Word-Smithery.
We come home when we can -- when the path is clear and it is safe enough to travel.
RCL from Washington DC
Dear Sharyn,
Ahhhh, Andrea Bocelli, I have myself just dicovered him...having just returned from Italy, I happened to say to my friend whom I traveled with, that the only thing I regretted about the amazing trip was that I did not bring home any Italian music, and like magic, a few days later in the mail was his Live In Tuscany CD and DVD...I haven't stopped listening, yes his voice and music touch the soul.
Your story about Caleb going out for the first time reminds me so much of putting my son on the school bus that very first day of kindergarten 25 years ago...with trepidation, I waved to his little face pressed up against the window, went inside the house and cried for the next 4 hours until the bus brought him home...I was so worried, would he be ok with out me? would he get along with the other kids? would he ask for help if he needed it? would he be able to keep up? would he be scared? I found myself worrying about these very same things one year ago today when my daughter left home for the first time to move 3000 miles away from me...I am happy to report that both children survived leaving their mother and their mother survived letting them go...and to this day when I get teary or nervous or ask too many questions of them, it's always the same reply as Caleb's...What? I'm doin' fine mom, stop worrying...
Great news for you and yours, that you are all spreading your wings.
Peace-
Audrey
I've been on the road for work on and off for a month or so ... got off the last plane faced with packing boxes to move into a new home. There's been so little time since the new year started to work on my promise to myself to seek some kind of balance in my life and I've been whining about it - internally, relentlessly, for weeks. I checked in on the blog today between boxes and trash bags and I found, as always, such self-awareness and clarity and smokin' mother love and I'm humbled...humbled and reminded of what's really important.
My youngest has been away from home since September and is struggling with a world full of changes. I've been struggling, too - with the best way to remain present in his life without standing in the way of his finding his own path - there are eggshells underfoot everywhere! I battle through maternal conflict on a daily basis...I'm worried about him but need to trust that the remarkable man that he's becoming will be able to navigate through these changes.
The particulars are different, Sharyn, but the kernel of the thing is the same - and I'm heartened by Caleb's progress and the grace and good humor with which you continually rise to the occasion. Thanks for letting us in and for sharing your steps in letting Caleb go - you give me hope.
Love to you all - Big, big love -
Susan
You go Sharyn.... We all know that it's hard, I too have 2 20 something boys, and also pray for all of them. It isn't easy letting them go....but would we have it any other way? They are all so beautiful, and have to spread their wings to fly. Caleb will be ok, and so will you Sharyn. Just another step for you all, and all of us too.....I keep you all close to my heart. I firmly believe that there is a reason for everything, might not always understand it, but..........eventually we will. Be safe, strong, and mostly HAPPY. Much love is sent your way.
beautiful, just beautiful.
i am so glad that you have these feelings inside you, and the cleaning does wonders, especially the throwing away of things not needed anymore.
i have recently cleaned my office of 20 years and it felt wonderful to say to myself, i have not seen this in 5 years.... i dont think i need it in my life anymore.
purging is wonderful therapy.
caleb will be fine, we are all behind him and his recovery.
prayers to you and yours today....
amy in ct
Andrea Boccelli always makes me cry. He made my husband cry too when we lost one of our dear furry friends. Crying and cleaning are both a release, a letting go of sorts.
You can see in your boys eyes that he is there, all there and "baby steps" are needed right now.
He will crumble under too much hold (that is the pirate in him), so you do what you need to pass the time and the worry.
Blessings always
J
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