It may not be for awhile that I am able to speak to you..
I sit before you with a spasm in my heart, a bludgeoning of my soul.
I watched with horror as Kai slumped over his father and wept...I reached out for Max moments before he shut down ....
I sat with Caleb as he tried to sift through the fog of his already damaged brain....
This morning, Jan sorted out his life into neat little piles on his kitchen table, walked with a loaded gun to the beach and shot himself.
I rubbed his head moments after his body was still..and I felt his blood trickle onto my little finger.
I pressed his blood to my lips, drank it in..... and gave him a final kiss goodbye.
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«Oldest ‹Older 201 – 212 of 212I am sure that in some small way, hundreds of virtual strangers coming together to embrace you can be some small balm of help in this sad and bewildering time. There is a community of support here to help you, so please post if there is anything we can do.
I am so sad for you and your family, and wish you only peace and love. There are no words to express when someone we care for is removed so suddenly.
Thinking of all of you with love.
harriet korim
To all of us who knew and loved Jan, I am grief stricken to have just learned of Jan's tragic passing to his next life. I will never forget as long as I live Jan's smile when I would see him every morning at the Wicked Oyster. I would always be greeted with a big bear hug, and a "Hey D.J." I cannot express how much I will miss Jan though I did not know him well. My heart goes out the Potter Family: to Sharyn, Caleb, Max and Kai, to Jan's mother and to all the Wellfleetians who loved Jan.
Jan -- may you rest in peace and light and hopefully while you are looking down on us all -- you can feel the love that you left behind. With love. Carolyn Kramer
Wellfleet. MA
Such a beautiful day it was in CT today. Spring has come and the sun felt so warm on my face.
I opened the blog tonight and all I feel is disbelief. How much all of you have been through.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Let yourselves feel the pain then the healing will begin.
The Ellison 12 nurses are thinking of you. You are all in our thoughts and prayers.
I've thought for days what I can say to make a difference to you and I realize that the only thing a stranger can tell you is that I am praying for the strength each of you needs to survive these first days of living without the presence of one you love. Please continue to take care of each other.
I ask dear God to provide an unending river of strength and courage to Sharon & the boys.
I thank dear God for the community in which we live and the steady stream of support and faith they give to all around them.
I pray that tears be turned into the bands of a rainbow and that peace finds its way into all hearts.
Diane E. Hall
Be strong. My heart and prayers go out to you.
To the Potter family,
Though I don't know you, I met Jan a last year through our mutual friend, Dick, and enjoyed his company during many lunch hours at the Flying Fish. I am so very sorry for your loss and will miss him very much.
Lots of love to you all,
Dakota
May the light and the love of all the angels that have ever been, are and ever will be shine on Jan and all the Potters and their loved ones. JZ
I'm sorry for your loss. Death is part of life but that's a small consolation to someone who's just lost a parent or a child. The Potter/Lindsay family is like a rock jutting out of the sea and the sorrow washes up and all around but still you stand strong and perservere. I clutched my daughter tight when I read about Jan, and shed tears of sorrow for all the people who are lost and have no where to turn. I'm with you.
Sean
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