Sorry to be so tardy- but I have been busy moving forward. Caleb and I have checked out a day program in NH..Portsmouth to be exact..and we will be moving there in February so that he can be with his tribe..and snow board on week-ends , and I will be attending care-givers meetings, so I will be with my new tribe as well.
I spoke to a woman who has worked in the field of brain inury for quite some time now, and she tells me of parents who, 20 years later are still stuck in such pain over the accident of their child, or loved one...and I am determined not to be one of these people- tho I do understand how it is that I could easily become morose over this situation... and I do not blame those who cannot move in a different direction. I just don't want this to be my path.
Our lives have now changed so dramatically, and I am thinking about how failure, in any situation, seems to strip away the unessential...and makes you focus on what it is that you do want. Somehow, not protecting my child from harms way wreaks of failure, but I am determined to walk out of this hell hole in one piece.....a changed, and different woman who loves in spite of pain, in spite of fear, in spite of dissapointment..and one who moves forward because her son bekons forth.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
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Sharyn, I am so happy to see that you posted again- I had been checking your blog several times today, I had a sense that something was coming. It sounds like a big change and one that offers something that you can't find in Wellfleet. It must be a tough feeling to be afraid that, in addition to all that you've had to face, you could sit with that same pain for so long. I can't help but think that the way you've confronted your fears head-on can only help move you forward, although I guess no one knows what forward would really look like. Please know that we're all thinking of you and wishing you the best,
Neil and Carrie
Sharyn, I think that the only way I could use your name and the word failure in the same sentence is to say that it is something you are definitely not!
You chose your path a long time ago, and it was not one of solitude, or immobility, or fear. You chose life and love. My wish for you, Caleb, Kai, and Max is that the path of life and love is wide and bright.
And on a belated note, best wishes to you and all the bloggers for a happy and prosperous new year!
Liz
Sharyn,
Krempels looks like an incredible, amazing, supportive place. I am excited for your moving forward. As always, you are an inspiration. Please keep us posted - I am sure I'm not the only person who checks in often and worries.
Sam in NYC
That is great news and all your efforts found a place that will be enriching for you both. You have always protected your children--being there for them, no matter what, is the protection. I believe pain for whatever ails us will always be there, but learning how to lessen its effect is a worthwhile skill for survival. If you look back at your journey of pain, joy, despair, enlightenings,the black hole, you are deserving of getting some attending to. Good Luck to both of you!
Sounds like a very positive and exciting step forward, Sharyn. I so admire the Lindsay/Potter resilience.
Good luck!
NY/Wellfleet Mom
All the best, Sharyn. Is this a permanent move? I hope that this gives you and Caleb everything you both are looking for.
Amy from western MA
My town! You're moving to my little town! We will be neighbors! I am thrilled for you and Caleb, to be moving forward in such a positive way. I know it must be difficult to imagine leaving your most beautiful corner of the world, but Portsmouth is a wonderful place...I've lived here for 30 years and have always felt connected and supported and loved. I would love to introduce you to some of the bright spots of my community if you're up for it - in the meantime...please know that you have my love and best wishes for a smooth move. (new email, if you need it - spiritbox.images@gmail.com )
big love, as ever -
Susan (in Portsmouth)
Great news Sharyn. I am glad both you and Caleb will be moving forward. I'm sure you will miss the familiarity of Wellfleet and all the friendly faces, but you will settle in just fine in Portsmouth.
Sharyn,
What a loving and devoted mother you are. You and your boys are lucky to have each other. We too are leaving the Cape in a few months. We're moving to Boston so that Daniel can continue to get wonderful therapy services and medical care at Spaulding. I know what a difficult decision it has been for us, so I commend you for taking such a big jump. I hope both you and Caleb get the support you need in NH. Take care.
moving for good or just the winter months (snowboarding months :)
wish you both well and hope that this brings the next step that you need in your new lives.
i check in often but an so busy at work that i no longer have the time to write, but i still follow your writings and i still think of you all the time
take care
amy in ct
Wow! What a huge step for both of you! It's great news, but will be a big adjustment for both of you!
I hope this is a wonderful program for Caleb.
I too have been checking in often and am so happy to find that you have found a new path forward. It is a big move. but will do your psyche good to get away .... Wellfleet will miss you and you that lovely town, but new beginnings are good and exciting, full of promise and hope.
Plus I am envious, you will live near Susan! And you will still live by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea......
We cyber friends are lucky in a way, we can go right along with you, stay beside you in heart and spirit. And you will come , in time , to an accommodation with this pain you carry, and I hope, learn to forgive yourself your feelings of failure.
You will prevail in your endeavors,
all of you, because you have the power of love to draw upon, you have all of us to lean on and you have each other, always.
My best to you, Sharyn. Thank you for the update filled with such good tidings.
As always, with hope, and love,
peg from PA
I was getting worried but as the old saying goes: No news is good news.
Well, you are so brave and determined to make the best of a heartbreaking situation. It feels like a good, healthy, positive move forward. You, Sharyn, will have other mothers/parents to relate to and will be able to discuss just exactly how you feel and express your most inner fears and hopes. I am happy for both you and Caleb. He will have the support he needs as well plus fun snow boarding!
You are an amazing woman and don't you forget it for one moment.
I send you all the luck and love that I can muster up. It's all good from now on.
Penny
AMEN Sister! Well said, with great confidence and conviction~
So very happy to hear your words, and sense a kind of peace in moving forward, though uncertainty lurks ahead. I am so very happy for you both, and am wishing and intending much Joy, Health, Abundance and Peace in this New Year....Looks like installment #1 has already been bestowed upon you and Caleb. With such positive intentions and clarity for the days ahead I see nothing but growth, and gratitude for it all~
Never far from thought...With you each step of the way...
Warm wishes for a Bright and Brilliant New Year to all our Blog Community and Family as well.
With Love and Gratitude,
Carino,
Melinda
Wow... just wow! This will be quite a change for you. I totally understand and wish you and Caleb the best!
I know Portsmouth very well, having worked there for many years. It's a great little city. I still pass directly through it every day, so we'll still be neighbors of a sort. If there's anything we can do to help with logistics or local info or whatever... you know we are here.
Please do keep us all posted as you move forward (and that really is a key word, forward) into this next chapter.
Love as always,
Jerry
Hi Sharyn,
The day program in NH sounds exciting...a new adventure and a nice change over the winter! I am looking forward to hearing more as the time approaches. So glad you found something for both of you!
HNY to all,
marcia
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