On the fourth of July, 2007 Caleb Potter was involved in a skateboarding accident.
He suffered serious injuries and continues to need all of our positive thoughts and prayers.
This blog is to serve as a space for updates on Caleb's journey of recovery.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

new life

As I hesitantly open the door and offer in our new life and try to accomodate it's needs and desires, I find I am filled with a new joy and a similitanious horror. Joy- because life is being breathed back into our little Long Pond home..nothing like a catastrophie to make the wheels of invention turn and churn. I am starting a Toastmaster's club in Welfleet so that I am better prepared for public speaking as I know I will want to share this story. Kai is more focused on what it is he will do with his life for to design it without Caleb in mind is out of the question for him. Max is now not so distant and is becoming much more involved with me and family decisions. As if we were not a team before? - we are now in the play-off's.
And the horror? Acceptance! Ever try to accept something you absolutely did not want to? When it comes to heroism, I am not the quickest study. I like to drag my feet, kicking and screaming down the pike for quite sometime, certain that "I" will be the one who can finally figure out how to turn back the hands of time. But every day presents me with proof to the contrary ( can you believe it?) , and I am beginning to see more clearly now that every moment I spend in this tangled mop head of misery only serves to hurt Caleb. We must move on!

Today I am struck with the tenderness which each and everyone of you present to me as a gift each time you arrive here on my threshold....if you knew me you would find this humorous - I am (was) the quntessential strong type who needed no-one. I was the poster girl for power and proof. Now I am learning humility and humbleness..the two "h" words which I feared and loathed and am now learning to wear like a favorite clinging dress which shows all the bumps and lumps, and how funny now--I just don't care!.
Thank you for walking this walk with me - with Caleb and Kai and Max....... and for teaching me more about love.

21 comments:

ep said...

heck yay sharyn! loving the positivity!

nancyk4444 said...

Sharyn -

There you go girl!!
Love your words - It is my honor and pleasure to walk this walk with you - every bump, turn and hill!!

Love and light to you and your beautiful boys on this sunny chilly fall morn!

Nancy in NY

Anonymous said...

sweet

susan in portsmouth said...

I tune in here every day with hope and gratitude in equal measure. You and yours provide me and mine with such wondrous gifts...we are grateful for your generosity, buoyed by your spirit and possessed of bigger hearts to house the love that pours forth here on a regular basis.

Walking the walk with you has blessed us and we can only hope to return the favor or pay it forward in some meaningful way down the road.

big love as ever - Susan

amy in ct said...

you sound great sharyn
we ARE with you!
peace and prayers
amy in ct

Amy said...

Sharyn, Beautiful words, beautiful thoughts. Good for you on the Toastmasters Club! What a great idea.

I am here, even when I don't post. I am always here, reading and thinking of you all.

Amy from western MA

Jeff- in the Berkshires said...

Sharyn,
It has been and continues to be a privilege to walk with you. Yours is an extraordinary human journey and I am continually humbled by its depth.

In my heart's eye I have for many months seen the possibilities in words and thoughts you are now sharing. From a stranger's perspective you actually are a quick study.

Good thoughts continue to be sent your way and to Caleb, Max and Kai. Mindful always that your journey is actually several journeys, independent yet intersecting.

Jeff

Julie said...

You are amazing, strong, fierce, and beautiful. Thank you for taking us all on this journey with you.

J

grace said...

Thank you too Sharyn for pointing me out in the crowd waving your arms and calling me over to you, caleb and his lovely nurses. I went up there alone since my pals had all been at oysterfest the day before and had way too many oysterbeers! I knew seeing you and the boys would be the greatest part of my day, and it was. You are so fun and inspiring. love grace

ribaby said...

Nothing like a tragic kick in the pants to show us how vulnerable we all actually are. And once we allow ourselves to embrace that vulnerability, we open ourselves up to a whole range of amazing people and experiences that we never would have admitted we "need." Bravo to you, Lady! It's never too late to change your spots...or at least dye them a different shade! In my mind, once we stop evolving, we should just give it up all together!

I have to echo Jeff's words. Thank you, Sharyn, for allowing us to walk with you. I know that my own situation with my daughter and how I am dealing with it seems so much more clear when I see many of my feelings and acts reflected back to me through you.

I thought of you and your family all weekend and hoped that you enjoyed the festivities. We were down the weekend prior to celebrate my husband's 45th birthday and couldn't get back for the Fest. But we will be there next year and hope to dance a happy dance with you then!

Love, Risa in Needham, MA

Lisa K. said...

Dear Sharyn,

For someone who describes the unpredictability of life so eloquently, you always offer me predictable comfort with your words. Your writings this fall feel to me like a comfortable fleece jacket -- it doesn't change the weather, but I feel warmer with it on.
I have been listening to you face down challenges with such fierce courage, and I look to your powerful optimism each time it reawakens. It means so much to walk along your path, to be invited to see the whole view.
I have thought more about you all whenever my own stress peaks -- I have indulged in small disappointments and big anxieties that rise and fall as the leaves change. And I am more drawn to your story than ever.
I think of Cedar and Ennie's wedding whenever I think my plans are not unfolding as I intend. I think of how my daughter was born 15 days early, before my careful plans could guide me. I think about Caleb, how he redefines my vision of a plan, and I look to you all to let things be as they are. As always, thank you. Lisa K.

mybonnie said...
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mybonnie said...

I think it should be mentioned that at this year's Oysterfest Shaye and friends once again put much effort, time, and more than anything heart into raising funds in Caleb's behalf.
Thanks Shaye for all your efforts. Blessings to you and yours, and to all the folks who continue to support the Potter clan.

Kevin Scalley said...

Linday/Potter's,

Your the gift that keeps giving...

Keep up the positive attitude!

Kevin

Jerry G said...

Sharyn, you know what they say... just picture the audience in their underwear!

Jerry

Unknown said...

Sharyn, while you have been learning you have also been teaching, and so we learn and as we learn we teach, and on it goes. Your words here have touched so many, many more than you'd ever imagine. Your life has changed my life, and I am a better person for it. Letting all of us walk beside you has been a generous act of courage and hope, and believe it or not, acceptance.....One alone must struggle to stay afoot when the wind blows hardest, but together all of us can help each other stand through the fiercest storm.
I think of this comforting space every day, and look forward to each new lesson.
As always with hope,
peg from PA

Marcia said...

Sharyn,

You have 'gifted' so many lives by sharing your journey.

Thank you for showing us the way,
marcia

Clance said...

Hey guys..
missing you much already, sorry I didn't get one last squeeze from Kai, or Max. Thanks for always having the door open to visit.. thanks Sharyn for letting me be part of the crew once again..it was a blast!
Luv ya BIG..

mia said...

It was so good to see you, Sharyn! Your words, as always, sparkle, just like you. You looked damn gorgeous--I'm nineteen and I wish I were as hot as you.

lots of love,
Mia

Unknown said...

Sharyn! I feel truly lucky to know you, becasue knowing you allows me to learn more than I ever will.

you are an amazing, exteremly strong, eloquint and elegant lady ...ANd you never fail to make me laugh.
Thank you for everything.

love
lizzy

Kim Harris said...

It was great to see you at the fest. Sorry we did not get to swing by for a goodbye but I was never good at those anyway, I wish I could have spent some more time with you guys. I have lots of funny flicks to share with you. I will keep in touch this winter and of course I am looking forward to reading more blogs. We are with you in spirit. Kisses to you and the boys!
Love,
Kim