Caleb's short term memory is eeking it's way back - little by little. When at Yoga he can now remember where it is he will find his shoes, and he is beginning to remember events which happened earlier on in the day. Just like with a newborn, there is no manual which helps to guide you through this. Brain injury is as unique as all of us are individually and alot of this healing is guess work. I am constantly reminded of the Neuor surgeons words to me as he sent us packing "Do just what you did before, it worked then and it will now." So I make him do his homework when he wants to go out and play, and I make him eat well and sleep well and we hold hands when we are walking in the woods or crossing the street.
Our big event is coming up so rapidly and I can feel the heartbeat increase in my chest when I think of all we have been through this past year...and has it really been almost a year already? I have elation and trepidation about this day- but I am trying to remember, it is only a day...and like all others the sun will rise and it will set and we will wake and celebrate the fact that Caleb survived, and we will sleep with dreams of a better tomorrow.
As I will guess all mother's do as their children get older, I pondered just which song I would want to dance to with Caleb on a wedding day..his wedding day . So I will leave you with the words which not only resonate with Caleb and I - but now with you as well.

"Have I told you lately that I love you? Have I told you there's no one else above you? Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness. Soothe my troubled heart, that's what you do"