Sunday, June 14, 2009
I keep looking for the thief who slid by my side, brushed my thigh and took what I knew was mine. But the human spirit, no matter what, always tries to right a wrong, tries to hit it right, and I am sufacing. Days fall back into dark velvet, painful nights ...but days still come...days still come, one after another, with a promise of yet better days to come. I am fine. Happy, in spite of all that has occured, and am fighting my way back to whatever it is that I will find.. I will land feet planted firmly in the soil, the rich earth that has sustained me from childhood, till now, and I will figure all of this out... God help me, I will figure this all out!
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One step at a time, one day at a time. It's the best that each of us can do, Sharyn.
As always, my thoughts are with you.
NY/Wellfleet Mom
Yes, you will, Sharyn. Ain't no other option for you. You are made of the fabric on which we write stories of survivorship. And I am proud to share the soil with you. Risa
Keep moving forward, Sharyn. You do have more reasons than most to give up, but still more reasons on top of them to keep you moving. Your sons, each a wonder in his own way, walk beside you, your family, where ever they live, hold you in their hearts, your friends, new and old, who know you and your smile and your sadness, will be there for you when you need them, and then there are the rest of us out here who care for you and about you, who pray for you and worry about you, who keep you in our thoughts every day, and who watch with awe as your indomitable spirit overcomes every obstacle thrown in your way. You keep fighting, dear friend and I have no doubt that you will figure it all out, that in the fullness of time you will prevail. I send you love and strength, in equal measure.....
As always, with hope,
peg from PA
Your courageous and non-defeating spirit is an inspiration. Two steps forward, three steps back....like the ebb and flow of the ocean, always reaching the destination, and having to retrace the steps, day in and day out. With that process come new and improved response patterns, as we feel our way through each and every emotion....each and every memory. You ARE doing it, as we all must to regain ground lost to to trauma, death, life, and we stand with you, arms embraced, giving love and support with each new or re-traced step.
You are not alone. You were never alone.....you are a woman of strength, character and conviction who is finding her way, as best she can. We love your authenticity, we embrace your struggle, we applaud the new emerging you and we walk with you, my friend.
Be well this night, our thoughts are with you,
Con Carino,
Melinda
Sharyn - I am one of the blogger community. I am also one who is here for you. Be strong. We all admire you. Hang in there. Much love from another invisible friend.
You've all faced tough times, but have overcome so much. Caleb,it's obvious you are so aware of what is going on around you, I can sense a need of freedom, contentment, graditude, and struggle while seeing you.. but you are still on point, hilarious, and a HUGE inspiration to me accident or no accident. I am truly proud to call you my billy buddy. Luv ya!
Sharyn, dive within yourself, and bring up that strength.. life won't let any of us have an easy day every day.. just stay grateful to the ones you and your families have.. your one hot shit, don't forget it. Besos.
Sharyn,
You need a project. Someone needs to come on board as your editor and help you shape this blog into a book. It needs to be out there for people going through what you are going through--and there are so many families wrestling with exactly this situation given the signature injury of the Iraq and Afghanistan wars are traumatic head injuries.
Ask for help, take it, and make this into a book. A publisher will come along.
aimai
Sharyn, so many express themselves so well on this blog, though none better than you. So I just want to add another voice reminding you that we are here and so many of us are pulling for you and Caleb every day. You and Caleb show how to "be where you are," dark night or bright morning, and that's the true path all of us can learn from. Thinking of you all this summer and we'll be here for whatever the next season brings.
Mornin' Sharyn,
I see lots of positives in this post...words like: surfacing, promise, happy, fighting your way back, sustaining, rich earth. Once the rain finally stops... who knows?
You have SO many projects going, but I agree with aimai above, on the blog-to-book idea. It would be helpful, comforting, & inspiring to those other families, and could widen this circle as well.
Sending early birthday blessings!
peace,
janet
Hello Sharyn,
It has been 15 months since Maria died. Tears have been shed, laughter has been had and I so know the waking at 2 or 3 am to only find sleep when I need to awake. But though all the pain, pain like I have never felt, I have also felt an overwhelming love. I recently listened to Abby Road and the line " The love you take is egual to the love you make" has not only reminded me of her but of Caleb. I do not know what is ahead or how to do this, but know that you are not alone. Thank you for your honesty and know that someone is thinking of you as they lie awake in the wee hours. Strength and love, Laura Diane
Sharyn - my husband is an editor. He would do your story for your book, as a gift. Hang in there.
I saw you and your handsome boys yesterday at the Austin Wedding- I wanted to say hello-to let you know that watching you and Caleb, Max and Kai together brought a smile to my face- My daughter was playing- running around in here little party dress- blowing bubbles and I saw you smile while watching her...I wanted to go over and tell you that you have made me a better mother by reading your words here- of what you go through each day-the highs and lows-but I didnt want to intrude-I wanted to let you enjoy your time -with your friends and your boys- and then you were off....walking up the driveway....with your boys by your side....but I was again so reminded that a mothers love is like no other! Hoping your beautiful boys were together today remebering all the good times with their dad...and one of these days I will see you somewhere and say hello and remind you of just how incredibly amazing I think you are....even though I have never even said hello- be well and keep on living and loving!
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