hello mum- good to hear some news from home. I'm glad the bowling goes on and I am so happy that Max is having fun and that he has Lara to keep him excited and interested.
so- I think we have an idea of what's to happen. We go back to Bali tomorrow morn. We will extend our visas 30 days, but Shaye and I will return on the 25th of March or so. I would like to be home for the 1st. One year has gone so fast. We are well, $ are holding up, I am surfing well and having fun. We will set out on our own to Sumatera as soon as we can get out of Bali. I miss you very much and hope you are really ok. I think often of how close you and I are, but also that in recent times, we have been unable to really get into it; we skim across the icy surface, distributing our weight as to avoid breaking through the fragile layer that serarates us from an entire frozen sea of pain. But I would like to break through with you, because we both need to and I am sure, because I trust you fully, that we can pull one another back out. We have to fall through sometime, and better together; alone.. I dont know I would find my way back up.
I love you, respect you and admire you more than you could ever understand. if you were aware of how profoundly you have shaped my life and given me the tools required to extract meaning and happyness from this often heartless life, you should be proud of yourself as a mother and a friend indeed.
I love you. be well, tell caleb I say hi and I love him and miss him. I will write him an email once back in bali. love you both. kai
Friday, March 6, 2009
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he carries your heart...
What nice people your kids are.
You have good reason to be so proud of them. Even from the other side of the world you and Kai seem to be on the same wavelength, hearts connected.
wishing you peace XOXO
what a good boy
i am sure you are so proud
and yes, you two are peas in a pod
and lucky to have one another.
peace to you all
amy in ct
He's one fine boy - as are all the men in your family....a testament to your profound love for them...
I am sure you are very proud of your sons, Sharyn, as well you should be. They are each phenomenal young men, and so take after their mother.
My love to all of you,
As always, with hope,
peg from PA
I for one am PUMPED for Kai to come home. I went to see live music in wellfleet, everyone's coming back from their warm places, and it's gonna be like sixty today. hooray for spring. and Kai, I very much enjoyed the ice metaphor, all the more so because at this point it seems, for this winter anyway, ice will only be in our lives as a literary device. rip some tube and rip it proper.
Sharyn,As a mother to 3 children myself...this post leaves me breathless..and with a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes. What beauty comes oout of your boy's mind.....and you helped to create that beauty....I could only wish....I have been crazy busy with my own life but I continue to check this special site.....always wanting to know where you are on your journey... I think that while it may be true that no-one can truly KNOW our OWN pain....it can be enough to know that others are there....truly wanting to understand it..as best they can...truly wanting to HEAR your pain...and truly wishing they could ease it. Not everybody arrives at a place in their lives where they can look around and know that they have those people....I think it's safe to say that YOU can. I hope you takce some comfort in knowing that this blog is still active for one reason....true and very real caring and concern for you and your boys.....it's that simple.
Please feel the love...and light that I and so many others send to you each day.....remember...for what it's worth...we walk beside you and we truly CARE.
If you still have my card....I would SO love to talk.....I misplaced your info....when I stuck it in my wallet at The Wicked Oyster.....we are returning this summer and I hope to get together and talk and laugh and share a tear or tow if need be....you are a special one for sure....
Nancy in NY
Your post was beautiful, Kai. Simply beautiful.
NY/Wellfleet Mom
The apple doesn't fall far from the tree....Kai has a way with words, just like his Mom!
You should be so proud...it is one thing to give your children roots, and another to give them wings.
Could we talk you into a road trip to Orleans with Caleb? The sun and warmth today brought hope of signs of Spring.
Hope you are feeling better today,
marcia
I takes great strength and great love to reveal this depth and name this pain and put it out there. It also takes great strength for you to embrace what I expect Kai is echoing from within you and to share this here.
The apple does not fall far from the tree.
As much help as a cyber net can be when you do break through, know that you have so many many extending their arms to support you all.
kai...hello my friend...great to hear news from you...i'm borrowing your botony books...thanks!
i miss seeing you around town...looking forward to seeing you soon...
PeAcE
xoxoox
deirdre
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