Jan's anniversary always hangs heavily over us.
I came across an article printed shortly after Caleb's accident where Jan was quoted saying " we expect a full recovery" and I was astonished with his directness and his confidence in Caleb. Where I have faultered and lost my way so many times over the past years...he, on some level, was convinced that Caleb would be fine.
I sat in bed late night, last night pondering this and have come to the conclusion that Jan's strength has asked of me to reconsider my position, to look at my lack of faith ..and to turn it around. That quote has made me realize how much I fret, how much I worry, how much I fear..and in doing so, am I not really attesting to a lost faith in Caleb?
So today I have made up my mind to trust the process, to think outside of the box, to really believe in this boy whom I love and know well enough to know that he, and he alone possesses the ability to heal..and I need only to get out of his way.
Thank you Jan! God Bless.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
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What a lovely tribute, Sharyn -- as one who has been reading all along, I feel like I have witnessed a flowering of your faith on many levels. Like real flowers, you have faced all types of weather, but have held your ground and made the land around you more beautiful. For what it's worth, you, Caleb and your family have sustained my own faith more than once. All the best to you -- Lisa K.
I wish I'd had the pleasure of knowing Jan.
Your ability to regroup and move ahead has served you well time and again. Keep moving, Sharyn.
Wishing you the best, as always-
Jerry
Dear Sharyn...What a "gift" Jan has given you indeed. His deep and abiding faith has reached out to you once again. What greater testament to love could there be, but to share ones faith for full recovery of ones injured "child".
Sharyn, you are right where you are suppose to be, as is Caleb. The Healing is Happening, right before your eyes....much as Jan said it would....I am in constant awe of your courage and conviction to stay with the process, and press on.
YOU are right where you are suppose to be.....
Blessings my Dear. to you, Caleb, Max and Kai....
Continue to hold you all in Love and Light~
Melinda
Sharyn,
Show me a mother who does not worry, fret and fear and I'll show you one who has no heart. Your letting go of the doubts that have plagued you is a part of the process. Jan's faith in Caleb's recovery, his confidence in his son's ability to make a complete recovery shows a father's heart, full of the love and strength and surety that he has passed on to his son from the day he was born. Now Jan's faith has passed through to you and is indeed a wonderful gift. It sounds like you are embracing this gift wholeheartedly, and this can mean only good for all of you.
Sending you a warm hug,
As always, with hope,
peg from PA
Sharyn, we're thinking of you and your boys and Jan's other family members today. Your post made me remember running into Jan about a month after Caleb's accident when Carrie and I had arrived for a visit in Wellfleet for the first time since Caleb had gotten injured. When we talked I was really struck by how confident he seemed then that things would be alright for Caleb, just like you described in your post. We probably came on pretty strong, since we wanted to know more about Caleb and were concerned, just like everyone was. I remember him making jokes about the blog and how folks would come to him for updates and they would know more than him. That day he really helped ground us when we were so worried. I think it's a great thing that you will keep that feeling going,
Love, Neil and Carrie
To "January Potter",
You didn't have to remind us (with the gray skies and soft drizzle that came from above this a.m., instead of predicted sunshine). We'll never forget. Dove milk chocolates for everyone, Mid cape lumber yahd.
Love "Margherita Doddridge"
Something always growing from you, girlfriend! That was a very apt post~ Love, El
It is soooo great to see Caleb, here, there and every where.We are all so fortunate........
For Jan.....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ltAGuuru7Q
Thinking of you, Sharyn, you and Caleb, now and always. xo Catherine
thinking of you all
sharyn, i will but in truro in two weeks and would like to donate a piece of jewelry that i made to your yard sale. i will try to contact you and if i cant get ahold of you i will leave it with kevin when we stop in to say hi, ok?
take care
amy in ct
A Happy Easter to all!
A very wonderful blog, Sharyn and may the Power of Positive Thinking be with you always. I sense an increasing calmness within you which might have to do with what Peg said about letting go of the doubts, or at least some, that have been so much on the surface. And who wouldn't have those doubts?
I think your faith has been there all along and allowing Caleb to be who he is now is the greatest gift you can give to him, to you and to the boys. The road has not been an easy one by any means but you have traveled it as well as you could. Jan must have been a special kind of man. I am glad he is able to help you now.
Love and best wishes,
Penny
Sharyn:
You and your sons are never far from my thoughts, not just on April 1, but on all days.
A Belated Happy Easter, and a Happy and Joyous Spring.
NY/Wellfleet Mom
Thanks for the great video, Tim Q
I used to have his original one on my desktop, glad to find it again. And his voice will live forever.
Sharyn, happy you see the clarity of Jan's vision for Caleb.
Roberta in Wellfleet
Often when you write I must ponder on the thoughts a bit. This is perhaps a little long than usual, but you have all been in my thoughts.
Sharyn, as you write and share about Jan it reminds me that we are all destined, by no choice of our own, to be both a teacher and student. Through your sharing and that of others who knew Jan well, he continues to teach, even beyond death.
Though we have unfortunately never met and I know you only through your words, what I know of you is that you are a woman of tremendous faith.
While Jan may have been certain in his expression of Caleb’s prognosis, you have never faltered in searching for answers for Caleb or accepted that there wasn't something more for Caleb. This was true on those dark rainy nights at MGH when he clung to life and it is true today. IMO faith is a continued searching for answers and the potential in life. You have professed faith in life; faith in your sons, faith in those close to you; faith in your community; faith in Caleb and faith in yourself. If you didn’t have faith, you wouldn’t believe that there were answers out there to be found.
While you may find yourself at times in doubt or be discouraged, I have witnessed this to be relatively short lived. And I have no doubt that you will continue to discover the depth of your faith and spirituality. It is clearly there.
The plans for the farm and the tag sale are great. When we are in the area in the summer I hope we will be able to sample the harvest.
Good wishes to you all
Jeff
Sharyn, I knew Jan from years ago when he built a deck and outdoor shower for us and often think about him. I loved the way he approached the carpentry with creativity. He handmade a special handle/lock for the shower door. The boys were little and sometimes he'd bring them. They just rolled around outside, never still and never bored. Very cool.
I'll be back in Wellfleet in May and will drop off some stuff for your yard sale.
But I have a quick question for you. I could use a referral for a family member and thought you'd have the info I need.
Could you please email me?
pabrocb@yahoo.com
Thanks,
Carol B.
Hi guys....Hope you are all well and enjoying this Spring time weather. Just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you and standing in support of all that you are doing and planning to do~ Wonderful!
Hey there Caleb...Hope you are having a great time planning out your life, and all that you want to do~Super!!!!!
Mari and I send super Hugs and Kisses..hope to see you soon~
Much Love and Light,
Your W MA Buddies:)
hey, pretty lady. thinking of you. xo
Happy Mothers Day Sharyn and all the moms out there. You are the best!
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