Much like an animal, Caleb lives in the present. When I am present and in the moment, I too do very well..it is when I vassilate between past and future that I get into trouble. I have not written in a while, and thank you for noticing, because at times even I become fatigued with my dribbling on and on about sadness and confusion and life and I get sick to death of hearing myself...so how could you not was my reasoning? Thanks for not ditching me!
Max has gone to Costa as of last evening to see his sweet Lara, and now Caleb and I remain on the homefront..me a bit disheveled and uncertain, and Caleb a bit bored without the constant coming and goings of his entorage. I have been particularly pensive about my life lately...it's as tho life is force feeding me stillness- not something I have ever done well. Caleb's accident brought life as I knew it to a grinding halt, Jan's suicide caused me to stop and ponder all that I thought was real, and a simple thing like my injured arm has made me focus on my caregiving since I can't possible run around and "do" all the things I do to keep me busy and totally preoccupied so that I don't have to think about things that I don't wish to think about. . So in my stillness I scrutinize all I have done in my life which I regret, and all the things I have loved, for which I have no regrets, and all the hopes I have for the future, where I hope regrets will pack up and mosey on by.
I am on the waxing end of life now - I don't know where or when exactly that that turn of events transpired...from a young girl full of promise and hopes, to a young woman raising children to where I am now, but I know now that I am looking at my mortallity in a way that I never have bothered with before. I watch the moon hovering above and realize that I too have cast shawdows that have kept out the light. I am illuminated by all that I have learned in the course of my years...and I am encouraged by all that I did not do well, because it humbles me and makes me human.
And I take great comfort in knowing it is the same moon that shines down on all of us.
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On the fourth of July, 2007 Caleb Potter was involved in a skateboarding accident.
He suffered serious injuries and continues to need all of our positive thoughts and prayers.
This blog is to serve as a space for updates on Caleb's journey of recovery.
He suffered serious injuries and continues to need all of our positive thoughts and prayers.
This blog is to serve as a space for updates on Caleb's journey of recovery.
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A BIG Thank You
In this season of giving thanks and celebrating family togetherness, I wish to extend a warm thank you to everyone who has been involved in a myriad of ways with my son, Caleb Potter, and his recovery. On July 4, he was involved in a skateboarding accident in our little hometown of Wellfleet on Cape Cod, that caused him serious injuries. He came home from Spaulding Rehab in Boston just before Thanksgiving. Through the blog we started:
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the Wellfleet community of support stretched far and wide across the country, and in fact, throughout parts of the world, with many people offering prayers and words of wisdom. We could not have come so far without this legion of support from all of you, in Wellfleet and beyond. We are sincerely grateful.
Sharyn L. Lindsay and family
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the Wellfleet community of support stretched far and wide across the country, and in fact, throughout parts of the world, with many people offering prayers and words of wisdom. We could not have come so far without this legion of support from all of you, in Wellfleet and beyond. We are sincerely grateful.
Sharyn L. Lindsay and family
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from all of Caleb's friends and family
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14 comments:
My Dear Sharyn,
It is an honor and privilege to know you and to have walked alongside you and your family. The "show's" not over! Not by a long stretch..we are all walking it. Some days are better than others, but, somehow, we always make it through, holding each other up, step by step.
None of us knows what lies ahead, but based on what life has shown us thus far, we take great solace in the fact that we have never been "alone". Grace teaches us to look ahead, within, and to be grateful, to treasure all that was, all that "is", and all that is to come with an open heart and mind.
We remain with you in thought, sending continued healing thoughts to Caleb, loving and healing thoughts to Kai on distant shores, and to Max as he travels to Costa Rica to be with his sweetie~ We remain with you, always.
May Love be your constant companion~
Blessings this night,
Con todo Carino,
Melinda
we would never give up on you and we always notice if you have not written. so good to hear from you again.
i think it is great that you can focus on what you need to focus on. and i too dont know where things turned but i am looking at life from a different part of the boat now.
sometimes the waves will rock me sensless and sometimes the waters are clear and calm. but no matter what they bring, i feel that i look at it all from a different perspective these days.
i seem to know what is important and what is not, what is worth fretting and what is not.
not sure why that is, but i am not arguing.
keep the peace in your heart and know that we all think of you every day as we check the big green page to see if there is any news ...
we love you
peace and prayers
amy in ct
Dearest Sharyn -
I haven't written in a while, but I have never stopped following along with you. My own life has taken twists and turns over the course of the last few months...there has been sadness and anger and confusion as well as comfort and great joy and with each new development I discover another piece of the puzzle that is my life. I channel your strength, your persistence, your great abundance of love and grace and carry the lessons that I've learned from you here into the challenging situations in my own life. And I thank you with a silent little prayer in my innermost heart of hearts on a regular basis.
Please know that, despite the silences, I am with you and yours.
Glad to hear your voice in such a strong, clear way - despite the sadness I hear hope and tenacity and it's a joy.
Big Love, always,
Susan
Sharyn -
I think you can and should feel pretty certain that you can always count on this group of us to be here for you.We have become our own sort of family and I think that we check in on you frequently and always care how things are going. I know that if it's been a long time between posts, I think you are either having a very busy time or going through a particular part of your journey and will post when you get your mind together!
I feel I am with you as much during your silence as when you are giving voice to your emotions....they both speak clearly.
I also find comfort somehow, in knowing we are all living our lives under the same moon and we each travel through and experience much the same emotions and ups and downs -no matter the individual circumstances. The older I get,the more I feel we are on this journey to learn and grow - our job is to pay attention to what we are being shown and find the many possible lessons our experineces are offering us...
As always, sending light and love -especially during what I find to be a very difficult month to feel upbeat in -February and I have a long history of struggles.....I think it's about our bodies being without the sun's light and warmth for way TOO LONG - I always feel much brighter once March rolls around....then we know we are on the clear path to the warmth of the sun and green and blooming things!! It always feels better once we get there.....
Oh, write or not, as it suits you. I hope that you also are keeping a private diary or journal, it is invaluable to keep track of your thinking and as a resource if you decide to continue writing beyond blogging. Sometimes you look back at your journal and realize that you had doubts about a situation or decided to do something based on wrong information and it can be very helpful to realize later what happened (and that it wasn't such a mystery). I am talking about my own life, of course, and the importance of private journals. You seem very health to me and with all the advances in medicine you may only be two-thirds of your way through your life, so enjoy the rest of it and all it brings.
It's been a very long while since I've posted. As with others who have written I've been going through my own pain. I've been unemployed for six months now. All that work to get an MBA and three months later well, it happens. My Dad has a rare and incurable type of cancer which had not shown its ugly face in the past four years. Last week, the doctors saw its shadow. They live in Truro and I live in Boston. Sometimes it seems a thousand miles away.
This has been a looooooooooong winter for all of us. You are not alone Sharyn. None of us are as long as we continue to reach out.
Hi to everyone, especially Sharyn, from another voice who has been quiet for a while but checks in every day and thinks of all of you through this LONG winter. Sharyn, when I read your words, I envision myself rereading them in a beautiful book that I imagine you have written. Take it from an English teacher, you have the writer's gift, and we are so appreciative of all your gifts you share so freely. It is wonderful to hear from others on the blog as well -- Amy from CT and I got to revel in a day of 60 degree weather, which I found amazingly restorative -- here's hoping more clear, warm skies open up for all of us as spring keeps coming on. To Lesa, I will keep your family in my prayers as well. Wishing all of you peace -- Lisa K.
Dear Sharyn,
Your reflections and musings continue to inspire not only our thoughts but the written responses of those who have already visited here. I find myself smiling over the eloquent words from names that are by now so familiar.
This is your blog so I assume you will post when you are drawn to. Sometimes more frequently and other times not. It’s ok to vent about the sadness and confusion. For me its always easier to hear about someone else than dwell on my own issues and friends are there for friends to vent to, even if they are cyber friends. We won't ditch you.
I find my own writing has not been as free as at other times [life just seems to get in the way] and I find that frustrating but know that you all continue in my thoughts and I do check in, even if I don't leave a note.
As someone about your age, I can appreciate your reflections on mortality and the shadows of the past that we have cast. The light of the moon though seems to magnify the shadows just as stillness grows the shadows in our mind. And those body parts just don’t seem to bounce back the way they use to.
When I get stuck on how much sand is at the bottom of the hour glass or when I feel old because I have been nursing a pulled muscle for months, I recall friends in their 80s and 90s talking sympathetically about "old" people they come in contact with. And as today when I sat with colleagues to work through issues and a list of problems in a way that I can do with ease only because of the experience in my past, those shadows take on new meaning and a defined character.
Sharyn, the depth of your writing and depth of your gifts are the fruits of this life of yours. The joy, the pain, the good, the bad, the regrets and the cherished. They all have seasoned who you are today and they have enabled you to navigate through some pretty stormy weather these past few years.
As I wish for you and for others and for myself , I hope that we let the regrets of the past blur and blend into the mellow seasoning that it is. It gives us greater patience and awareness and an attuned appreciation for the life around us and if we live to the age of my friends in their 90s we are just over the half way mark.
Take care,
Jeff
Dear Sharyn,
I love knowing that the same moon shines down on all of us on this earth. Our Mark once sang his baby sister to sleep to "somewhere out there", Fievel mouse's moon song. The current moon is waning gibbous...I like the circles of it all... wait a while and it comes back to a phase we like better. Waxing, waning, hoping for the next part of the circle, the next good thing. I hope we'll all be lucky enough to sing our grandchildren to sleep with the same tune. Sharyn, you have a young spirit, even with all that has happened. You'll no doubt be like my young Aunt Mae, at 96, still at the center of every gathering!
All of your posts, sad, hopeful, or
wistful...hit a familiar chord.
We humans are all connected, though we forget sometimes. Your
writing reminds us. Thanks.
Sharon -- I have followed your blog since it was established, and ask about how you are when I talk to Ms.B -- It sounds as if Kai and Max are trying hard to enjoy life, while still caring so much about
Caleb.. You have raised super boys --- and I hope and pray that you soon will be comfortable with your new life with Caleb -- so difficult to see a beloved child struggle, but, he is trying. Know that you are constantyly in our thoughts and prayers, and as two people who know how hard the days seem at times, things have a way of working out, so keep those ruby red lips smiling and we will smile with you each step of the way.-----C and K
Sharyn - your words are golden. I am another Lisa who reads every day and am here to support you. I don't write a lot but I think of you all the time. You are an inspiration to all of us moms.
Happy Valentine's Day to All Here.
Dear Sharyn,
To ponder "regrets" is sometimes heartbreaking but what is done is done. Unfortunately we can't go back and change anything and if we could, life would be completely different from what is is right now. So,as Melinda from Greenfield said, "noone knows for certain what lies ahead"--we can look ahead with optimism, hope and excitement or we can just sit and be fearful of what is to come--that isn't living in any form.
I feel a warm sense of comraderie here on this blog--we all seem to be in-tune with wanting and wishing all the best for you Sharyn and Caleb and Kai and Max.
So with that in mind I shall bid you adieu and remember! Spring is not far off and I recall saying something like this a yr. ago.
Love and best wishes.
Penny
Ditch you? Never!
Sharyn, there is absolutely nothing I can say that has not already been said by people far more eloquent than I am. You've been dealt a crappy hand of cards, but you are playing it with far more grace and heroism than most of us could.
Hang in there.
Things are going to get better and better for you and your amazing sons. I truly believe that.
We are the same age, you and I. And I "get" your comment about being on the "waxing end of life." But as long as you keep writing, I'll keep reading, and we'll keep each other company. I think the waxing end of life holds promise and excitement for all of us.
NY/Wellfleet Mom
I love you and am still checking in! Look to the light of the moon and let it give you strength. You are one of the strongest woman I know! I miss you!
Love,
Kim
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