On the fourth of July, 2007 Caleb Potter was involved in a skateboarding accident.
He suffered serious injuries and continues to need all of our positive thoughts and prayers.
This blog is to serve as a space for updates on Caleb's journey of recovery.

Friday, August 31, 2012

I wonder sometimes how this will all end? Caleb struggles, as well as I. We dance around the fact that our lives have changed, barely talk about it, and yet the undercurrent is pulling us at all times towards depression. It is so difficult to live like this, sad all the time...Caleb and I both. On each others nerves at all times. Life marches on. Cedar never comes by, Shaye is getting married and has a baby, Jenny is getting married too. Kai and I don't find time to speak to one another, and Max is lost in his own painful world, alone. I do not wish this on any of you. If you thought the pain of the hospital and the life threatening life that we once lived through was enough to put most of you over the edge, this has panned out to be worse...the everyday looking at each other and realization that life has changed as we once knew it, will never be the same...and it hurts, it hurts, it hurts. I am trying to stay afloat...Please do not comment that I need help-please do not comment at all..nothing can be added. Tonight I am feeling very alone..and alone I am. Sad, just sad.

16 comments:

Amy said...

Just wanted to say---I hear you, and I am so sorry for your sadness.

Anonymous said...

speakin' truth. nobody every really wants to hear it, do they?

janet said...

Thinking of you. I'm sorry.

Julie said...

I'm sorry to hear that mass of support you recieved in the beginning of all this has dwindled, and you and Caleb are all that is left.
I hope Kai and Max get stronger for you.
I was hoping when you mentioned Caleb may live on his own and had a support group things would get better. Always in my thoughts.

J

Jeff- in the Berkshires said...

Rarely a day goes by that you aren't held in thought and prayer.

Erin G said...

Hi Sharon,
I understand - I have a head injured family member- his challenges affect us all. Your mother love is fierce and an inspiration. Day by day, keep going.

peg said...

My heart goes out to all of you. I am so sad for your sadness.

Jerry G said...

Sharyn, Lana and I are both so very sorry to read this. Please know that you and Caleb have not been forgotten. You are in our thoughts. Wishing you peace and strength, as always.
Jerry

Emm said...

You know, I just re-read your blog and there was such an outpouring of help for you, your family and Caleb after the accident. Wellfleet looked like the kind of community that just doesn't exist anymore. What the heck happened? Where did everyone go? Surely they realize that you still need support and love. I get that people's lives continue (as does yours and Caleb's) but that doesn't have to mean that you are left behind. I don't understand and my heart breaks for you.

Janice said...

Actually I was going to say that this is something I can relate to. My brother was in a car accident over 2 years ago and while he survived, the changes he faces every day now are so challenging sometimes it just doesn't seem fair. I know this sounds odd - but thank you for letting those of us going through something like this know that we are not alone.

Janice said...

Actually I was going to say that this is something I can relate to. My brother was in a car accident over 2 years ago and while he survived, the changes he faces every day now are so challenging sometimes it just doesn't seem fair. I know this sounds odd - but thank you for letting those of us going through something like this know that we are not alone.

Unknown said...

I wish, as I am sure all who have read your posts do, that there was more we could do. I have read this seemingly last post so many times hoping that there will be some light. I don't know how, but I hope you find it.

Anonymous said...

Dearest Sharyn...Please know that I think of you,Caleb, Max and Kai often and hold intention for this time to be one of Infinite Possibilities with the best possible outcome, Highest good, with ease and grace, now. Con todo Carino, Melinda

Anonymous said...

Dearest Sharyn...Please know that I think of you,Caleb, Max and Kai often and hold intention for this time to be one of Infinite Possibilities with the best possible outcome, Highest good, with ease and grace, now. Con todo Carino, Melinda

Unknown said...

I am so sad for all of you. My wish is that someday, maybe someday, that you can stop looking back at what cannot be, but to be able to look forward at what can be possible. It is the only way forward, but it must be your choice.

Unknown said...

I am so sad for all of you. My wish is that someday, maybe someday, that you can stop looking back at what cannot be, but to be able to look forward at what can be possible. It is the only way forward, but it must be your choice.